It has been a year

A year ago today my Indy left this life. I can't believe he has been gone a year. That seems like it would be long enough for him not to enter my daily thoughts, but he is there. It seems that it would be long enough for the tears to be longer in coming, yet they are always on the surface ready to erupt at the least provocation.

I miss him.

He was so young, and he deserved so much more than he got in life. He deserved to play, to live, to be happy and healthy. He had so much more of life to experience.

I miss him.

I miss him curled up with me as I go to sleep each night. I miss him greeting me each morning with his warm tongue on my face.

I love him.

I will always love him. He was more than a dog to me. He was like my child. He was the very first puppy I ever had of my own, and I couldn't have loved him more if I had given birth to him.

It has been a year. Life has gone on in so many ways, but my emotions regarding the loss of Indy are still very raw and at the surface. They are very much in the present.

I miss him.

I remember how he licked my tears at I was getting ready for his final trip. The trip he wouldn't come home from. My heart was breaking. Part of my world was ending. Part of me was dying. And he licked my tears as they ran down my face. He loved me until the end. I know he never meant to hurt me. To bite me. I am sure he didn't mean to hurt anyone. He couldn't help it. Yet in those final moments he showed me love. He gave me that to remember as our last moments together.

I wish out time together didn't have to end as soon as it did. I hope he knew how much I loved him. How much I wish things could have been different. How much I wanted to watch him grow and experience the world around him.

I miss him.

Sleep gently my sweet Indy. You will be in my heart forever.