Endings And Beginnings

It has been almost two weeks since I lost my darling Indy. My mind still hasn't really accepted this. There are times when I think I hear him cry to go outside, or see him with his favorite toy out of the corner of my eye. I guess such sights and sounds are just burned into my mind. That little dog was so special to me. I can close my eyes and see him nursing on his "crabby", or running in the yard. I strive to remember the sweet, wonderful dog he was for most of his life, and not the dog he had become.

I still cry. Some days it is just a few silent tears. Some days uncontrolled sobbing. I miss my little boy. He touched my life in a way I never dreamed possible. It is hard to imagine life without him.

Yet, life goes on.....

A new puppy has come into our lives. A little red dachshund boy who reminds me more of Indy than I care to admit. I think of how many times we said "We need to get a puppy so Indy can have a young dog to play with." As I watch this new bundle of love and fur dash around the house, I think of how much Indy would have enjoyed him. The old Indy that is. The sad fact is, Indy, in his last state would have killed this sweet puppy. I will never understand why this had to happen to my sweet little boy.

I will do my best to make "Peanut" a part of the family. Of course, meeting him was love at first sight. Yet, part of me says "Never again!". Never again will I allow myself to grow so close to a pet. Never again will I allow myself to love that much. But, I know I will. I will love and protect Peanut. Will we have the same sort of bond as Indy and I? I suppose only time will tell. I will love him for the puppy he is, for the dog he will become. So, as one all to short life came to an end, a new life full of adventure is just starting for Peanut and I hope to make it a good one.