It has been a year

A year ago today my Indy left this life. I can't believe he has been gone a year. That seems like it would be long enough for him not to enter my daily thoughts, but he is there. It seems that it would be long enough for the tears to be longer in coming, yet they are always on the surface ready to erupt at the least provocation.

I miss him.

He was so young, and he deserved so much more than he got in life. He deserved to play, to live, to be happy and healthy. He had so much more of life to experience.

I miss him.

I miss him curled up with me as I go to sleep each night. I miss him greeting me each morning with his warm tongue on my face.

I love him.

I will always love him. He was more than a dog to me. He was like my child. He was the very first puppy I ever had of my own, and I couldn't have loved him more if I had given birth to him.

It has been a year. Life has gone on in so many ways, but my emotions regarding the loss of Indy are still very raw and at the surface. They are very much in the present.

I miss him.

I remember how he licked my tears at I was getting ready for his final trip. The trip he wouldn't come home from. My heart was breaking. Part of my world was ending. Part of me was dying. And he licked my tears as they ran down my face. He loved me until the end. I know he never meant to hurt me. To bite me. I am sure he didn't mean to hurt anyone. He couldn't help it. Yet in those final moments he showed me love. He gave me that to remember as our last moments together.

I wish out time together didn't have to end as soon as it did. I hope he knew how much I loved him. How much I wish things could have been different. How much I wanted to watch him grow and experience the world around him.

I miss him.

Sleep gently my sweet Indy. You will be in my heart forever.

I'm Evil!

OK, I admit it, I am evil sometimes. The emotion of hate is very dark, and it brings out the dark side of all of us. As usual, my evil thoughts are brought on by Jim's wife. I really can't bring myself to call her my SIL.

Although it seems impossible, continues to show herself as more of a bitch with each passing day. The week before Thanksgiving she got mad at Jim because he wanted to go visit his parents (oh the horror!). She got so mad she broke a dresser and then beat Jim with a piece of wood.

She also complains about people smoking at my inlaws house. Before that she complained about flies there over the summer. They have HORSES....Can you imagine that they would have flies too?

Like me (and probably everyone in the family except for Jim) my MIL also has no use for her.

My MIL wanted a sign stating that the non-smoking area was outside. I was more than happy to make one for her. As a special touch, I added a border of flies. I sure hope Nikki appreciates my effort! LOL

This Week

This week was one of those weeks that each day could have been an entry on it's own.

In the wee hours of Monday morning I got a phone call from my husband. He was making a delivery in Anniston,AL. While he was waiting for his turn to get in, someone shot at his truck. They hit two tires. Luckily, he and Furby were OK. I really don't want him going back there, but he is headed there again. It really pisses me off. I asked his boss if he is getting hazardous duty pay for going there and he just laughed and said what happened is in the past. I wonder if it was *his* wife, if he would be sending her back?

Monday morning I had to report for jury duty.I always thought it would be neat to do jury duty. But the timing was all off for me. The weather this time of year can get nasty very quickly, and I just could not commit to getting down to the city every day. I had to talk to the Judge about my situation, and he agreed to give me a postponement until May.

For some reason, Tuesday morning arrived bright and early. Actually, it wasn't bright, it was still dark out. I never wake up early, but I was wide awake. I decided to go visit my MIL for morning coffee. It was a very windy day, and I had to dodge trash cans as I drove.

My SIL and her new baby were there, and later my BIL arrived. I had a nice visit. Didn't really say too much to my BIL. No reason really, other than I can't think of anything I really have to say to him other than "JIM! What the hell did you get yourself into with psycho-bitch?" Alas, some things are better left unsaid.

I went shopping after leaving there. Then I had to go drop off the Camaro and pick up the truck at Joe's bosses house. It was quite a distance, but it had been decided that Joe would not be coming home this week and I had to have reliable transportation to pick up his check if the weather turned bad by Friday (which it did)

Since I was in Waterville, I decided to stop by the vet and pick up a refill of Freddy's thyroid medicine. Then I stopped and visited my Mom on the way home.

When the vet gave me the medicine, I knew the dosage was incorrect, but he insisted it was. When I got home, I double checked and discovered I was correct. I called the vet and let them know about their mistake.

On Wednesday the guy who has been working on our front porch finally showed up again. He still hasn't completed the project, but at least I have steps now and can use the front door. I was also made aware that on Thursday people were coming to haul away the empty trailer next door and when they came my fence would have to be taken down.

I woke up early on Thursday to make sure I took the dogs out before the fence came down. Then I took them out again...and again...as the people never showed up. Although I didn't really do anything special, I felt like it was a wasted day since I spent the day waiting.

Today...Friday..UGH what a day!

The lake effect snow came as promised. Plans changed slightly. Joe made it to the terminal, and his boss was bringing his check. I had to meet him there and get the check and bring him some clean clothes, since he is going to be out on the road for another week. The roads were beyond awful. It took me nearly 45 minutes to go the first 12 miles.

Once I got there I was able to have lunch with my husband! He even got to come home for a few hours!! Then I had to drive him back to his truck. The weather was even worse than earlier. Complete white out at times. I had no idea if I was even on the road. I had enough of that, and I don't plan on leaving again until this storm passes.