Happy 6th Birthday Tequila!

Tequila barking

Happy birthday to my little guy. He was 18 months old when he came here. He was in a horrible situation. He spend days crated, and didn't get food every day. He came here with some issues, including food aggressive (can you blame him?)

It took over a year before he would let me cuddle him. His old owner was a woman and he didn't trust me.

Now he is a happy boy who loves to snuggle with me, and loves to play.

Happy Birthday Tequila!

Being A Mother

Yesterday was Mother's Day. My husband has wished me a Happy Mother's Day every year since 1999. 1999 was the year we became parents. Of course, our baby died before she had a chance to take her first breath. Does that mean we are not parents? What if she had been born and taken that first breath before she lost her life? Would we be parents then?

As you might notice, this is an area where I feel a lot of resentment. We had hopes for her. We loved her. We wanted her. So, why doesn't she matter as much as any other child which was created by any other couple?

When I see the children walking out to meet the school bus in the morning, I think of her. She would be in kindergarten now. I imagine her walking out with them. I wonder what she would look like. What her personality would be like. Would she like school?

I know that nobody else thinks of her. She never existed for them. She is less than an after thought, she isn't a thought at all.

Since I believe in reincarnation, I also wonder if she has been born into a new life yet. I wonder if she is near me. Could I even know her? I also wonder if she was at the end of her life cycle. If she was perfect and had completed all her Earthly tasks and lives among the angels.

Happy 8th Birthday Morgan

We drove half way across the country to get Morgan. He was handed over to us in the parking lot at a dog show in the same manner that someone would toss an old shoe. He was painfully shy and timid. He seemed afraid to move. We put him on the bed, and several hours later, on the bed he still sat. We gave him a toy, and he didn't know what to do with it.

Morgan & Tequila wait for their special treat

Five years later he still doesn't play much, but he plays when he wants to. He is no longer afraid to move and makes himself comfortable anywhere he pleases. He isn't a show dog anymore, and he never did get his Championship in the ring, but he is the champion of my heart.

Happy 8th birthday Morgan. Mama loves you.

Today Bailey is 6 months old. Two events in one day! I can't believe how fast my puppy has grown up!

Morgan's Birthday Party Pictures: Morgan's 8th Birthday